I seriously never thought this was going to happen

Right at this moment I'm laying in bed next to the sweetest kindest person I've ever known. He is sound asleep, and I'm laying here and can't help but feel absolutely terrible. After Bart has been training for weeks to prepare for his 50 mile run, which is to start in less than 7 hours, he has chosen not to go so he can stay home to take care of me.

I had to have an MRI with contrast last week which meant they had to put an IV in my arm. The MRI went just fine, but the dull ache in my arm turned into a lump yesterday and got larger and painful today. Unfortunately, I've formed a blood clot in the vein I had the IV in. On the bright side, it's not in a deep vein; however, it's ruined my plans to be support crew for him since it's pretty painful, and I have to keep applying heat over the area.  I told him if he felt like he could do it on his own, he should still go.  He's worked so hard for this ...No was his answer. He told me he would just worry about me the whole time, and he would not have fun. We still talked it over for quite some time, but his answer was always no. 

Thank you Bart for loving me so much and I'm so sorry...